well. in this journal i'm going to be completly honest. . . . so here we go!



it turns out i dont feel like i should. with a dad i cant tell anything to and a mom i can spill anything too because she understands.

i'm sure you all know i am bi. and no i have no issues with me being this way myself.

but i cant seem to find a specific other that is like me. and i'm still a bit young but i'm also older now. and past relationships never worked out, because of that person stealing your very heart and toying with your emotions. . . . .


today i was wondering to myself, and also thinking of what i like in both a girl and or guy. . . .


if its a girl:
blue eyes
brown or black hair
personality
deceant looking
is into the same hobbies as me
if there smart nice and get to know me
callled me every day
say that they love me
talk about ourselves to eachother

if its a guy:
shyness
blue eyes
brown hair
personality
deceant looking
is into the same hobbies as me
there smart nice and able to get to know me
like different aspects of music as me
walk with me and talk about ourselves

its hard to say what i want in both cuz its hard when you like so many people and when you liked someone that used you and or never wanted to talk to you and lie about you saying "i really like you". . .

it took me (and still is) almost 4 months from seeing this person i really liked that didnt like me the same way even though we did everything that a relationship can describe. . . *sigh* oh well. i know that day will come. . and i do still feel bad for those other people i did date but even they know too that it wouldnt work out since we were different and didnt have alot in common except a few things.

i want someone that is nice and funny. someone that will lay and cuddle